Within seconds, my mind flashed back to beautiful past memories and ungrateful moments that followed. It is the precious springs of my boyhood and my broken lust that have made me sit here tonight. Like the raindrops, the immovable memories that are buried in my chest and written in large letters and ink cannot be erased except by the command of Allah. It is the memory of the past and the beginning of this wise faith that I am sitting here tonight, that we will be aware of and find out if there are boundless waves that flow between us and where they start.
I raised my head and realized that I was living with a family consisting of a mother, father and brothers, all of whom were boys, two of whom were older than me, while the other two were younger than me. I saw myself as a little diamond living in a palace surrounded by my loving parents and siblings. I grew up in a life where I was over pampered, protected and not 5
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Be someone who wants to be respected and treated. Along with that, my parents took a big responsibility in correcting my behavior, raising me with the correct manners that Allah SWT instructed them and the beautiful Somali culture that leads to the chastity of girls. I was born in the family of God and built in the city of Hargeisa, the capital of the Republic of Somaliland, it is the same place where I was born and my four siblings. Hargeysi is a city that is growing rapidly day by day and people are ripe to turn the wheel of development.
Life goes on according to God's plan and we live a beautiful life as I get older. When I was six years old, I was sent to a Quranic school, which was the beginning of my education. While she was passing through here, Allah SWT gave Mother and Father another child who made us six. Then I asked myself, "Would it be you who will be doubled or your sons will be five?" At that time, I was very interested in finding a partner in a manhood that would double me up. Luckily it happened and Magool-yar was born.
The cold light that falls reminds me a lot of my childhood days that were very beautiful. For example, I used to beg my mother to give me Magool-yar and I would take her, then she would coax me, "Mom Magool is It will break us a little and when it gets a little bigger, you will keep it." Now I know those mother's words very well, because I do not entrust my little son Abdirahman to a hand other than mine and it is a beautiful feeling of motherhood.
I live in that life shaded by love and I grew up in the lap of loving parents, tonight I convince myself that I don't have it all and I live in this house
the four walls that look at me, look at the top of the palace but under it I don't find the happiness that my life needs. Let's go back to the falling waves.
When I was studying the Qur'an for a year and a half, I recited sixteen chapters of the Qur'an, while I was in the middle of Surat al-Kahf and I was very young when I recited the Qur'an to that extent, then my parents told me. prepared to enroll me in a school. A few days later, my father took me to one of the Arabic language schools in Hargeisa.
That day, my father told the school teacher how I memorized the Koran and where I was going. After that, he praised my father for the good manner in which he taught me the religion of Islam and the study of the Koran. He then told my father that he was going to test me and send me to a class that I could adapt to. I took a small test that day and he asked some questions from me. While others gave me a pen and paper, he asked me to spell some words that my Quran teacher taught me. My result was that I was sent to the second grade and thus enrolled in the school. It is called 6
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In my childhood, I don't forget my first day at school and my new class, until tonight, when I have a child, I remember very well the atmosphere of that day and the things that happened there.
I'm sitting in a class where I don't know anyone. My two older brothers are in the fourth grade and not close to me. I was happy with my new education, on the other hand, I was affected by the environment where I didn't know anyone, so I had to go among the students and get to know each other. From that day on, I became a tougher student. In the same way, I take the orders from the teachers who taught me that I was a student.
I finished primary school and attended for seven years as one of the students who were especially trusted by the teachers to bring fame to the school. I was 16 years old when I passed primary/secondary school in the second place in all the private schools that taught in the Arabic language that they managed then and still manage. I continued my studies and entered the high school which was also a private school.
I have entered the stage of youth and I have become a shield that can be seen from afar and protected and wearing the hijab that Allah SWT has made obligatory. Kollay is a well-educated and well-behaved Muslim girl whose modesty is an honor for her
Save many things, the first of which is the wrath of God. That's why I escaped many of the problems that parents face in their teenage years.
In this courtyard where I am sitting, it is as if she is whispering to me the unforgettable praises that lie in my womb. Ever since I ran away from the fire until tonight, when I came here, it seems that the happiness that I have had is limited to this house where I live and I don't know where to go. Because the soul says to me, "Don't let your stress and restlessness affect anyone else. Hold your moments in your chest and let the tears wet your cheeks." I sometimes think of someone who will bring you back your old life, so that you can be happy and the burden on you will be less. But I realize that a day will not come back even for a second and then I know that I am dreaming. Let's take a look back at the memories that are coming so fast.
I have become a person who was guided by Allah SWT and who cared for my parents and who provided me with all my basic necessities in life. I am currently in the middle of my studies in high school, my ambition is to study Islamic studies which is learning and practicing one of the greatest blessings that Allah has bestowed upon us and it is the only thing I have ever had. was buzzing.